Monday, June 6, 2016

Things I want...

I want to be good. I want to be better. I want to be better.

I want a long, long ladder. I want to climb towards the sky. I want to touch the stars. I want to work hard. I want to work crazy hard. Because it is not possible to climb a long ladder without effort.

I want to be smarter, and wiser. I want to make better decisions. I want to learn from my past mistakes, from other's past mistakes to make smarter decisions. I want to use my instincts to the fullest because they are one of the most important tool given to us all and the most underused one.

I want to apologize. To those whom I hurt knowingly or unknowingly.  For apologising will remove the dirt from my mind. I also want to be more forgiving. I want to forgive the people who hurt me. I want to let go of the toxic feelings I have for them. For all they do is keep me trapped; trapped in my thoughts, trapped in the past.

I want to be kinder. And more selfless. For one selfless deed takes you a long way. How much further can many such deeds take you?

I want to be less egoistic. Not give it up completely. Because I believe that a little self-obsession is key to success. Just enough to tone down the expectations I have from others. Just enough for it to be healthy.

I want to handle my anxiety better. There are times when I feel like the world is about to end; my world is about to end. I feel like I cannot breathe. I want to be able to tell myself "everything is going to be okay". I want to be able to handle my anxiety independently.  I want to breathe better.

I want to travel. I want to see the world, learn from different cultures. So far I have lived in one city in one country. I want to branch out, visit places, be a traveller, and not a tourist, for a traveller always tries to immerse herself in the local culture, rather than standing out.

I am 24, going on 25. And I want everything from life.

I am good. I want to be better. I want to be better.